Tangled in Thoughts

I kept cutting the things I scribbled Writing something was never so difficult I contemplated on things and even googled My pen moved across those words as I again cut! My mind searched for a topic For I was in a mood to write And being topicless felt ironic However I thought about something light I thought about love or lost hope "Love" automatically made me say 'Enrique!!' His love songs being my favourite among pop. I had to drop the topic away! I was still left without a theme "Friendship" struck me only then Theme song of 'F.R.I.E.N.D.S' made me beam Friendship's been sung about so much by men. "What now?" I thought feeling bored Teenage, craziness, luck passion or school? "Help me choose one, Oh Lord!" I kept pondering for something cool! Hours and days passed without much hope.. I was left with nothing to write about I hunted for topics like a super-cop! I felt like letting my feelings out. So here I am, writing ...

Teardrops on my pillow Tell all my deepest miseries My broken heart with unease Tries not to bellow Why am I becoming so furious? I ask myself to get no answer My mind acts like a tap-dancer It is really fractious I have nobody to confide in The world looks upon me And merely says "you're so happy" But nobody knows what my life's been I'm tired of this solitary existence I've been pretending for so long Because I wanted to go along I have lost all my hope and sense It's absurd why I am so lonely When I have everyone else around me Your absence makes everything crazy Maybe that's what makes me unhappy How I wish you could see me through! How I wish you never walked out of my life... Fights paved way for that strife.. But I never wanted to lose you.. The monotony of days makes my life so blue Forlorn in this world so wide My tears are what I try to hide So I put on a smile and still wait for you..