Tangled in Thoughts

Lost on this lonely path I look ahead to see nothingness Immured am I by the unceasing wrath Of bygone times and their mores. Once you came into my life Painting it with hues of happiness But now how am I to survive? Sans you my love, all I am is hapless. As violence that I’ve always abhorred Spurned all my dreams in one terrifying moment What could I have gifted you but all the tears I shed? For you lay cold beneath a blanket of blood marking an end. Wasn’t I always a mere spectator of the games life played? And so before my eyes changed everything Once a vibrantly coloured canvas, it is now drained All that I have are faded colours and a ponderous ring. What does the unending expanse of white symbolise? Wanness, worry or woe? Or perhaps it is the colour of hope and poise. For it is white with no tinge of blue. With five metres of pure white draped A forlorn and dispassionate lady I see in the mirror. With no traces of saffron on...

Teardrops on my pillow Tell all my deepest miseries My broken heart with unease Tries not to bellow Why am I becoming so furious? I ask myself to get no answer My mind acts like a tap-dancer It is really fractious I have nobody to confide in The world looks upon me And merely says "you're so happy" But nobody knows what my life's been I'm tired of this solitary existence I've been pretending for so long Because I wanted to go along I have lost all my hope and sense It's absurd why I am so lonely When I have everyone else around me Your absence makes everything crazy Maybe that's what makes me unhappy How I wish you could see me through! How I wish you never walked out of my life... Fights paved way for that strife.. But I never wanted to lose you.. The monotony of days makes my life so blue Forlorn in this world so wide My tears are what I try to hide So I put on a smile and still wait for you..

I remember the good old times Those funny moments And beautiful lines Now it's all deep laments. The time has passed Perhaps too fast And I have amassed Happiness and fun that never last. Where has the time gone? Where am I standing? Feeling so lone Like in darkness with no ending. Leaving my friends and place Leaving my soul I parted my ways Once and for all . . .